Sunday, October 14, 2018

 This is Phoebe. She is my little heart. I lost her last month. I have not been able to talk about it, because I am still raw with emotion and I leak every time I mention her name. Like now :-( She was my best friend for 13 wonderful years. Even when she couldn't use her back legs anymore and learned to use a little red wheelchair, she never complained or whined. Even when I had to squeeze her little bladder to help her pee she never complained. Every time I picked her up she leaned her soft little head against my chest so I could kiss the top of her sweet head. She listened to my secrets, sniffed my tears, begged for bites of whatever I was eating (in true puggy style). She let me clean her puggy wrinkles and brush her thick shedding fur and put drops in her little ears. She wanted nothing more than to be with me, near me. She lost her voice in the last year, so when she barked nothing came out. She loved to watch animal planet and barked silently the whole time when animals came on the screen. She gave me 13 years of wonderful, loving and happy memories. I love her so much. This post if for my sweet little Phoebe.

Sunday, November 26, 2017


Phoebe and I are looking forward to a blessed Christmas season. Thanksgiving was so full of thankfulness that it's spilling over into Christmas. Sadly my sister, Danna and I had to say good bye to our mom this month. She graduated too glory and is now enjoying the company of our Lord and many loved ones who went before her. Losing a loved one makes you hold those still with you all the closer. We are wishing you a blessed Christmas; a time of relaxing, regrouping and rejoicing. Merry Christmas everyone. Thank you for visiting my blog. Sandra

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Oregon Is An Inferno!!

It feels like all of Oregon is on fire right now. In this breathtaking photo by Brad Hutchison you can see the growing Eagle Creek Fire.















The news reported that this fire has jumped the Columbia River from Oregon to Washington. It is also threatening the historic Multnomah Falls Lodge as shown in this photo below by KATU's Jason Nguyen.















Early reports are that the fire was started by teenagers playing with fireworks. My goodness, what is the thought process there? There are thousands of acres burning; homes destroyed, families displaced, wildlife snuffed out, pets lost, thousands upon thousands of dollars in damage. What will money do? Will it give back the forests or the homes? Will it give back the security of the families who lived there? Will it resurrect the lives lost?

This is not the only fire in Oregon right now. There are many fires burning and many, many men and women putting their lives on the line to put them out. The images on the Internet are stunning and heartbreaking at the same time. It's hard to see the stories on the news and see the pictures and hear the heartache and tears and even gratefulness of the people who are in the middle of it all.

Washington above us and California below us and even Canada are also fighting wildfires this summer. I went outside with my morning coffee this morning and my chairs and my car were covered with ash. It was a reminder of conditions when Mt. St. Helens blew her top. The state was covered with ash then also.

This link will show you a time lapse of the Eagle Creek Fire.
http://www.kgw.com/news/timelapse-of-growth-of-eagle-creek-fire/471285079

In the midst of all the chaos and evacuations and firefighting and tremendous loss, there are people helping people. There are acts of heroism and sacrifice. Don't watch the news without a box of tissue. 

At 6 PM on September 5, 2017 the Eagle Creek fire is zero percent contained. Please pray for the victims of these devastating fires and for the teenagers who may be responsible for the Eagle Creek Fire.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

I have sort of seen myself as the keeper of the memories in the past. I have always had a very good memory for past events, names and places. I have always taken everything other people didn't have a place for in their life anymore. I have attached a memory/story to every item I possess. At times people have marveled at how accurately I remember things and my kids always loved hearing the stories of each and every thing I displayed in my home.

Things, times and people change. Things that have changed are the cost of renting and buying; also the restrictions put on pets, appliances, changes to a dwelling. Times that have changed are the unrest and overall insecurity of the world around us. People age and the things that meant so much to them in the past are transient later in life and all that matters is the relationships and quality of life.

I don't think I am going to be the keeper of the memories anymore. I've imparted all I know to impart to my loved ones. I will continue to share my memories and life experiences as long as they want to hear them and find them enriching and enjoyable. The keepsakes I've collected through the years are mine and, in the end, they don't mean as much, if anything, to my family/kids.

Honestly, seeing the life my kids have been carving out for themselves, there really isn't room for the many (too many) items I've kept so close to my heart through the years. They either have not settled into a life yet with home and roots or they have a different style of what they like and all these "things" simply don't fit.

I'm ready to give up my past and settle into what is left of my life. I plan to make it as good and joyful and peaceful and comfortable and exciting as I want at any given time. I still want to surround myself with things I love and things that make me happy and make me smile. They might be things from my past or treasures I've found along life's highways. (No, not dumpster diving. LOL)

I know there will be times that someone might say, "How can you give that up? It's been in the family for years". Or, "You can't let that go, it's always been so important to you". The thing is, no one else wants it or it isn't important to them or they don't have room for it or it doesn't fit their style or they can't take it now, but maybe in the future.

There's a few things that fill me with joy and memories galore. They will stay. For the time being almost everything I own is in one of four storage units and I haven't seen them for nearly a year. I'm looking forward to getting reacquainted and deciding what will fit into my limited space and what will leave for a future journey with new owners who, I hope, will love them and add to their stories.

Monday, February 15, 2016

We are about to find ourselves homeless. The house we have been renting for three years is going up for sale and we have been told we have to move. Housing in the Portland, OR and surrounding areas has gotten so expensive that a person on a fixed income cannot find a place to live. That's where we are now. At nearly 70 years old, this is not where I expected to be. For the past three weeks we have been moving our belongings and furniture into storage units. That's not cheap either. We have to be out of this house by March 13th. With no where to go in sight it looks like we might be sleeping in the back seat of my car and my son's vanagon. Oh my, what to do.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Change of Direction

It's time for me to change the direction of this blog.  When I first started blogging I got so many warnings.  I was warned not to give too much personal information.  I was warned not to talk about anything political or religious.  I was warned that some not very nice people might comment on my blog posts.  It kind of intimidated me and my posts became fewer and fewer. 

I've decided to talk just about what is important to me and what my days and life consist of.  My blog is just something that I really want to enjoy.  I hope you enjoy it too or, at the very least, it makes you think.  Even if you think, "Boy, I'm glad I'm not her".  :-)

I won't have a bunch of glossy, beautiful pictures, because I don't know how to do that and I just have the standard old digital camera and cell phone.  There won't be any fantastic decorating ideas or mouth watering recipes or linky parties (whatever that is).  Just you and me, but mostly me, unless you leave a comment. 

 Phoebe

My blog says, Pug's Mom Says and that little pug, Phoebe, is very important to me.  She is suffering from some sort of condition that is slowly paralyzing her.  Her back legs don't work like they are supposed to.  She falls a lot and bumps into things and poop just falls out of her.  She can't control it anymore.  I have to manually express her pee.  She can't sleep with me anymore, as she has accidents during the night.  She doesn't seem to be in any pain and she acts like she wants to play.  Her appetite is good and she still loves to snuggle and cuddle.  I have three other pugs and she is still as competitive as she ever was.  My late husband used to say that Phoebe was the best gift I ever gave myself.  I think he was right.

Until next time,
Sandy

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Baby Update!!

I've been falling behind on this blog project.

Before I go any further I want to explain something.  I adopted three of my grandchildren many years ago, so my grandchildren became my legal children.  When my "daughter" gave birth to her son we puzzled about whether he was my grandson or my great grandson.  I find myself using the terms interchangeably now.  If I confuse you I'm really sorry.  I tend to call my adopted grandchildren my children and I call their children my great grandchildren.

Today I'm doing a baby update.  My first great grandson will be 2 years old in March.  You've met him on my blog.  His name is Chance.  My second great grandson turned 1 year old last November.  I got busy and forgot to introduce you.  This is Damion.
Damion and Chance are becoming best friends.
By the end of next month Damion will have a new baby sister.
Here she is, but you'll have to use your imagination, because she's still inside her mom.  LOL

I just attended a beautiful baby shower for Baby Amerie.  The invitation said it was for Amy and Steven (mom and dad), but we all know it's really for babies.  Everyone had lots of fun and even Damion got a present. 

Next Baby Update should have a new baby in it. :-)

It's a happy day!!!